I know they KNOW it but I had to SHOW it!

Sometimes, I get so busy "doing" for my family that I feel like the things I do should be looked at as "favors" from me to them. Things like cleaning, cooking, ironing, folding, cleaning, cleaning, laundry, picking up toys, and more cooking.




Then I wake up sometimes and realize that all of those things, as important as they are, really don't show my family how I really feel about them. Yes, I get up and get them ready in the mornings, making breakfast, praying with Jason before he walks out the door, watching him until I see that 2nd foot lift off of the ground onto the big yellow bus that he loves to ride so much. And yes, I pack his backpack the night before, lay out his clothing, charge his gameboy so he can play it on the bus, etc.



But does he really SEE how much I love him from this stuff? Probably not. I'm sure he "knows" it.



And for Sarah, she's with me all day every day and I realize that sometimes, being a mommy gets into the way of being HER mommy. Somedays, she says "let's play" or "can we go to the park" and I have a list a mile and a half long and so I say "not today, sweetie".



Today, as I have done many many times before, I decided that I need to really take the time to SHOW them that they are special to me in other ways besides my chores that are necessary to keep a smoothly run household. To them, those things probably aren't as important as they are to me. So, today, I skipped the housework that I ALWAYS do on Mondays and I took Sarah to the park at the zoo where we fed the ducks and played at the park. Then, when she laid down for her nap, I baked Jason's FAVORITE cookies and made homemade lemonade which is their favorite thing to drink that they don't get very often.



I wrote them both a note telling them how much I love them...which really would have been "enough" and wouldn't have taken as much time but I chose to do more than "enough" today. I chose to do "more".



When Jason asks me what the special occassion is, I'll just say "I know you KNOW it, but I had to SHOW it!" And I know he'll realize how much him and his little sister mean to me.



So, take the time today or every day to do something little for your kids. Write them a note and put it under their pillow that they can find at bedtime, or color a picture with them, play barbies or simply read a book. Just make sure that you don't look at whatever you're doing as a "chore" but as a privelege of being theirs and them being yours and those "little" things will go farther than you'll ever imagine!

Back to the Homefront...

Well, I haven't blogged in a few weeks. Here's the short version of the scoop.

Went to work on Monday.

Didn't like the job.

Tried hard all week to brainwash myself.

Gave up on trying to like it around Thursday.

Quit at lunch on Friday.

Blissfully enjoying time with Sarah and keeping my house clean again now.

There ya go!

Not much to say about it except for it was NOT the right fit for me. I will find something better when the time comes. That was not it.

So, back to blogging, cooking, cleaning, playing, cartoons with Sarah in the mornings, etc! Life rolls on!

Not much news other than that!

Back to Work....

Well, I have been staying at home for almost 2 years with Sarah & Jason doing "nothing" as some people may say. Yes, that was me, laying around watching soap-operas, getting mani/pedis & sipping hot tea all day! LOL NOT! Well, it was everything I thought it would be....and SOOOOO much more! Endless moments of fun with my children, being able to actually keep my house clean and spend time doing things with my family and friends and working my tail end off trying to keep up! haha Staying home is rewarding and yes, you may get a nap every now and then, but it is still very hard work and sometimes it is not very rewarding. Sometimes, everyone forgets that you do everything for them and you feel like you're being "taken forgranted", which you are sometimes. Not purposefully, but it happens. Sometimes, you just take care of everyone with such ease to their eyes, that they forget you are actually doing things for them. The cleaning, cooking, bedtimes, ironing, laundry, errands, homework and so forth just seem like things that "happen" in every day life. Everyone else just knows these things will be done and that it's not their responsibility because "you're there and you take care of all that." Working moms get a double dose! They get to do all of these things AND work full time jobs which in most cases are also very demanding! I am adding myself to that list as of Monday. I am going "back to work". Yes, it is funny saying that. It's as if I'm saying I've been on an extended vacation from all responsiblity! If only that were true! haha I am excited about this new chapter for me and for my family! Yes, some of the workload will have to be shifted and everyone will have to pitch in and do "their" part around the house...but they have been pretty spoiled since I've been home, so I think we can handle it! Todd is excited about me working because he knows I am happy when I am working and we will have some extra money which we could always use. (I'm not sure if he has realized he'll be recieving a "checklist" on Monday or not, though! haha) He's always willing to help me if I ask him, though! It will be fine.

I had really quit looking for a job and decided to wait until Sarah started pre-k in the fall. A few days ago, I got a call from a Doctor whom I had interviewed with a while back for a "receptionist" type position. I have a friend who works at his office and she had set it all up so I went. I didn't hear anything from that position, but a few days ago, he called and offered me a position I couldn't refuse!

Their office recently went "automated" with the laptops for the Doctors to carry in to see the patients with their charts in the computers. They are trying to go "paperless". He needs someone to be in charge of making sure their systems are up to date and keeping up with getting all those charts into the system. Basically, scanning the old ones in, etc. The best part is that I get to make my own hours. I chose to begin working from 8 a.m. to 3 p.m. so that I can still have the same schedule with Jason for school and Sarah can go to dayschool from 8-3, which works out GREAT! She is SOOOOOO excited!

One of my friends owns a preschool center and she will be there with someone who knows her and loves her. She had gone there before when I worked and Jason also went there when he was a little tike! She cannot wait until Monday! I will still be able to pick her up in the afternoons and get home by 3:15 or so to wait for Jason to get off the bus and start homework, dinner, etc. which is a perfect schedule for us! During the summer, I plan on changing my schedule to something that allows me to still spend time with the kids in the afternoons swimming, going to the park, etc.

I feel like this job will be a blessing for me and our family. Sarah has been begging to go to "school" lately. She just longs to be around other children. We go to church on Sundays and Wednesdays now so that is her only time to be around other kids in a group setting. She absolutely loves it, so I know school will be great for her. We took a little "tour" the other day and she was very happy with what she saw.

I will keep my blog updated still! I will still have lots of free time, just not in the middle of the day. :)